Hope

Things havn't been too too bad. I'm finally starting to think that maybe there is hope after all. I have only one more day of no phone or computer. So that's good. Things with fr3shboy have been just amazing<3
I met this new guy though. I mean I was just on this chat site and he had a cool name so I talked to him then we added each other on msn and we started talking more and he's actually pretty cool. Sad part he lives in Canada not only that but he's 19! Dude he's so nice though. Lmao I mean I don't know he's just pretty cool. Anywho, I've been clean for a week now. So that's good. Hmm I don't think I really want to talk to My step mom anymore. I mean I told my thereapist I don't want a relationship with her anymore. I just don't like her anymore, she's just not easy to talk to. She's too pushy. and Annoying. I have to admit that. I guess she can be like my stepdad and I don't need to have much contact with her just minimal conversation as posible either way I won't see her again until halloween. So I'm pretty happy.
I got two new dogs that we rescued from the Humane Society their soo cute. I love them so much. Their names are Buttercup and Annie. Buttercup is a chihuaha and Annie is a Chihuaha Terrior Mix. I'm  actually pretty happy cause Annie is really attached to me.
Well I guess that's all I really have to say. Oh the butt face Nick dumped me. Which is good cause I was ganna dump him anyways. What a douche.

Old habits coming back.

Thursday night I went outside telling my mom I was going on for a walk. I ended up going over to my friends house and we sat outside. She then called our other friend and we ended up smoking. Except this time it wasn't just cigs. We smoked mary j. It wasn't like amazing. I wasn't totally blazed. But I was pretty blazed. I ended up calling my ex gf and then my ex bf. Not a good idea when your blazed. Jus sayin. Anywho I ended up telling my dad on friday night since I jus couldn't keep it in since I jus felt that bad. Then saturday I wasn't feeling good I was just pissy and stuff. This morning I just exploded when my dad's gf decided to yell at me telling me I treat her like shit. Like excuse me. She would just not leave me alone. Somtimes I wonder what her problem is. Like when someone does not want to talk then you should leave them alone. She just doesn't know when to stop. Well I got my phone grounded for another week. Thanks alot dad. My mom is probably going to yell at me like no other when I go to her house. Isn't this just going to be Fantastic!!! Oh joy!!
Well on a happier note. I am officially in love with music. Esspecially Papa Roach and Rise Against but don't forget about Escape The Fate.
I made a MyYearbook. It's alright I only made it cause my friend Bre has one and I thought What the Hell I might as well. It's actually not that bad cause I can meet poeple! Hahaha. Well who knows! Anyways I guess I might as well get off the computer before my dad starts yelling at me. I think fr3shboy is like mad at me cause he won't really talk to me much. But who cares if he can't even give me the light of day why should I even think about him? Exactly.

Proposal.

I look up at the moon
watching it glisten
waiting for you.

I hear footsteps in the distance
As I turn to look at you
A grin spreads across your face
and I can't help but smile

My face turns bright red
As you pull roses from behind your back.
You smile sheepishly and whisper "for you"
I kiss your cheek and hold the flowers close to my chest.

You take my hand
and we walk together
hand in hand,
threw the garden.

We stop at the bridge
and face at the water in silence.
you pull a small box from your coat pocket.
A tear escapes my eye as you say the magic words.

I wrap my arms around you
pulling you close.
We walk around hand in hand
and stop by an old willow tree.

On last kiss to make this night unforgetable<3 :]